Most ridiculous of days..

So these past couple of weeks i've been having a hard time with work and life and bills and all the other stuff in my life. I try to always be happy and friendly at work even when people are irritating me and driving me crazy, but yesterday was the most rewarding day of my life, well i mean where work comes into it.

So i came back from lunch to find an envelope with just "Chanda" written on it, sent through the mail to the clinic address. Jokingly i said it was probably fan mail, but i honestly thought it was just a birthday card from a family member or something like that...so i open the card, and this is what it says...

"Dear Chanda,

              I hope i spelled your name right. We wanted to thank you for always having a smile and being so very nice to our babies every time we come into the clinic. We like to help and reward young people who work hard when we can. Finding good workers now days is hard and we can tell you love your work and all the animals, what a treasure you are. We hope this helps some and lets you know that your hard work does count. Keep up the good work and God Bless. "

Okay, wow...how amazing right?? I was in tears, until i turned over what was IN the card...a 500$ money order! FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS!!

What??!!

Oh my god, i was bawling, i kept crying every time someone read it, i can't believe it, i did something to make someone so happy, and i can't believe it!! I feel like i have to work even harder to make sure i never treat anyone poorly!

I will carry this card in my purse for the rest of my life, and always look at it when i'm having an awful day and feel like i hate my job and that i don't matter to anyone. Holy camoley!

-Chanda

Worthless...

Uh! I'm feeling like such a failure lately...being sick is an epic fail from my body, and i never feel like i am truely secure in my job, even though i've worked there for almost 6 years and have gone through hell and back, i still feel like Dr K sees me as a kid and that my position is like...disposable. Everyone else thinks i'm delusional, but i can't help but feel like an awful person, i wish i could just be one of those people that goes to sleep and doesn't toss and turn for hours worrying about stupid little things. I swear i'm getting ulcers, i'm sure its defiantly contributed to my headaches.

I feel the worst because i've already taken off so much time this summer and now i've been sick for two days and then i'll be leaving early this friday and next friday for judging at the fair. Uhhhhhhhhhh! Anyway i have this stupid colitis again, my intestines are attacking themselves. stupid.

-Chanda